Moving Day

Last night Chris and I were snuggling, playing a game, and we decided that it doesn't feel real yet... that it hasn't really sunk in yet that I'm leaving. This move is especially hard because I don't know the next time I'll see Chris. I really hope I can get a car soon so I can drive up to Logan to visit Chris. This is really hard for me... :(

So my apartment checkout time is at 9:30 (twenty minutes from now). The problem is, my family isn't here yet, nor will they be here for a while (I think, I can't get in contact with them). So all my junk is just piled on my bed. And I have a lot of junk! (Pictures are coming!) This is obviously a lie because my stuff isn't all junk. But the checkout lady said I could leave my stuff on my bed. So my bed is piled with stuff. Now on my old blog I talked about my broken box-spring and how I was standing on my bed and it collapsed... so I'm really hoping my bed doesn't collapse before the checkout lady gets here, because there's a lot of stuff on it, so it's possible.

This week has been AMAZING!!! Chris did a great job at making sure my last week in Logan was fun and eventful. So my "Week in Pictures" post tomorrow will be full of goodies. I did mean to spread it out throughout the week, and then just have reminder pictures for Sunday's post, but Chris kept me busy, so I wasn't ever able to post about my week. So tomorrows post will be long and full of many pictures and exciting things!! Be excited!

So I'm planning on posting again tonight after I get everything set up and settled in at home. I'll have pictures and I'm sure some good stories so come back tonight for more about my move. I really wish Chris could come back to help me. It would be so much better if he came with us to move my stuff and spent the night, but he has to work tonight. He's worked every night this week. I'm very proud of him because he usually only works 3 or 4 times a week.... often less. So working all week is good for him.

So if anyone knows of any jobs available in Sandy/Salt Lake area, keep me posted. Or just hook me up. All my readers are awesome! I'm trying to find a better theme for my blog, if you have any suggestions, let me know! :)

--Kaylee

Leaving

Yesterday I had a panic attack. Why am I leaving Logan? Why am I moving away from Chris? Why am I putting off my schooling? Blah, blah, blah....

I realized that moving home feels right. I haven't been very happy in Logan. School was hard, I wasn't too fond of my job, and I've never really liked the city. Chris makes me happy (I have to clarify that) but I need a time, just a little time, to do my own thing. I'm moving home. I feel that my ability to find a well-paying job is much greater in the Salt Lake Valley. I won't be paying for rent or food, only for car rides up to Christopher. I'll be saving money and then I'll be able to finish my schooling. I think I've calmed down since yesterday. I can do this. Chris and I can do this.

I'm excited to move home even if it means leaving Chris. I think we have a very strong and loving relationship and nothing is going to change that. I'm moving home for my future to be better, to have the money I need for school. I'm excited and nervous, but overall, I'm happy.

--Kaylee

Freak Out

I had a freak out today. Chris is gone and it's my annual sleepover night with Lauren, but I don't get a sleepover tonight. Well technically I get one with Ericka, but it's not the same in any way. Something's wrong. I'm thinking too much about the decisions I'm making and where I'm going in life. I'm super stressed and I feel so alone right now...

So today, I danced.

I grabbed my laptop and headed to the HPER building on campus. I went into the dance studio and warmed up at the barre. Oh how wonderful it felt to do barre exercises again! Then I went out on the floor, practice a couple turns, then leaps, then a worker came in and told me they were closing. I had only been able to dance for a little while, but I did it. And it felt wonderful. I felt free, I felt good, I didn't feel stressed anymore. I was flying! I need to dance more.

--Kaylee

Week of Boring Frustration

So it's Sunday night. Michelle and Nick drove me back to Logan and now I'm sitting on my bed, alone in my apartment, writing on this blog. It's a weird week. Tomorrow I have to go into work and quit my job. Crazy. I've been working there for three years now. As much as I hate custodial work, I'm going to miss this job because of all the fun and all the friendships I've made. It's really starting to sink in that I'm moving away from Logan. People are finding out and it's really hitting me. This move is going to be really hard.

Christopher is gone for the week. He's in New York, currently. He's off on a crazy adventure with his family and I am beyond jealous! I want to go to New York so badly! Tomorrow he's visiting Central Park and the Empire State Building, living my dream. Yesterday he went on a church history tour, and the day before that he went to Niagra Falls (one of my goal places). I can't believe he would leave me in Logan while he's adventuring! I can't believe I'm stuck in Logan in the first place. Because I spend all my time with Chris, it's been hard to make new friends this summer. So now, while I'm here this week with no car and no Chris, I have no idea what I'm supposed to do with my life.

I need a car. I am going to buy a car. It's becoming more of a necessity.

I get Tuesday off of work for Pioneer Day, one of my favorite holidays. Lauren and I would always sleep downtown for the parade, but we aren't doing that this year. What's more, I'm stuck in Logan. What on earth am I supposed to do here with no car and no friends? I hate this week.

.... But at the same time I don't. We leave for Jackson on Friday and I am so excited!! Jackson is always the best part of the summer and this year Christopher might be able to come up for a couple of days. How wonderful is sharing my favorite place with the love of my life? Super wonderful!

--Kaylee