I'm sure you've noticed that I haven't posted on here in a while. It was about a month ago where I hit my limit. I have been frustrated for YEARS that this blog isn't what I had intended it to be. I kept telling myself every few months that it would change, that things would get better, but life always got in the way.
Last month I noticed that a girl I went to high school with, with a blog that hadn't been active in months, and only had posts every few months, had more followers than mine. And that was the moment I quit.
In the back of my mind since starting this blog, my thoughts were always "get more followers" and I acted on social media and on this blog in a manner to do so, but to no avail. I would plan everything, every move, and I felt so limited and boxed it. I didn't even notice it though.
The moment I told myself "I'm done blogging" it felt like a huge weight had lifted. I started to enjoy Instagram in a way I never had. I wasn't posting to please others, I was posting because it made me happy. I didn't feel pressured to do a photo shoot, then upset it didn't turn out as I wanted.
To say this blog is entirely done, is probably false. I will very likely come back. But right now I'm enjoying this freedom I hadn't realized I had taken from myself.
I've focused more recently on my Instagram. My personal (@_cowgirlkaylee_) I just try to post semi- beautiful photos to document my life. I have a "fitness blog" (@kayleeshealthylife) account that motivates me to reach my health and fitness goals. And I have a third account (@zoeyandmakell) where I post daily photos of my twin girls (it's by far the cutest and my favorite of the three).
I've also been working on family vlogs to document events in my children's lives. Its been lots of fun and while I never expect my little family vlogs to amount to much, they're something I'll be able to look back on for the rest of my life.
Everything I do now is for myself and my family, which makes it SO much better.
I hope you understand my reasoning behind this. I feel better, and, no offense to anyone who may be in love with this blog, my personal happiness is the most important to me.
This may not be the end. Most likely a break. But I don't know how long and I have no current plans to continue.
Follow me on social media to keep up with my life!!!! I would give you links, but I'm doing this on my phone and I'm literally too lazy to figure out how. There are links at the top of this page, find me there.
