Sunday Scrapbook [Feb. 21st - 27th, 2016]

Hello friends! Today I am started a new segment on my blog that will hopefully help me keep up with blogging. Part of the reason I started this blog was to document my life and I feel like that portion has disappeared. So I've decided every Sunday to do a quick recap of my week with pictures. Kind of like a scrapbook, but without all the prettiness. Let me warn you now, I don't do anything with my life. Most the pictures and videos I'll post are me playing with filters on Snapchat (cowgirlkaylee22), but regardless documenting my life is important to me which is why this is happening. I hope you enjoy it and if you do something similar to this on your blog let me know, I'd love to see more examples of ways to make this better and make it my own.


Sunday February 21st:

Umm.... I'm pretty sure I did nothing today. Yeah. Nothing. But I did blog! You can find the post called Becoming A Warrior HERE. It's a personal favorite and was pretty popular on my Twitter. I'm so Twitter famous *wink wink. I also got an email through this blog which means something exciting is happening soon!!! ...it's a giveaway. I couldn't wait to spill the secret. Start liking my social media pages now to get more entries into the giveaway! I'm not sure exactly when it'll happen, but soon.

Monday February 22nd:

I did way too much shopping today. Ross, American Eagle, and Cotton On. I will be doing a haul video soon so you can see all my purchases! Also, I replaced Chris with my bear Oso:

Tuesday February 23rd:

Today was apparently National Toast Day. (How would we ever know about these obscure holidays without social media? Thanks Twitter for the heads-up.) So I posted this photo on Twitter in honor of the holiday:

And I'll be honest, I was really upset that no one liked my Tweet. Does no one care about Nacho Libre? Sure you may not be able to quote it as easily or often as my husband, but doesn't it still just make you laugh? It's Jack Black for crying out loud!!

Wednesday February 24th:

So last night I slept with my hair in braids so I would have wavy hair and, yeah, it was insane.

(Sorry for the blurry picture) This picture is even tame compared to the way it looked right after I took the braids out. It's been a long time since I've done this with my hair and considering how annoying it was I'm pretty sure I remember why I stopped. Although this kid at my work said it looked nice.

Also, I need to get my ombre fixed. In pictures it always looks like I'm in weird lighting so the top is randomly dark. I want to go back to my cousin since she originally did my color, but she lives to far away it's hard to justify a long drive just for a hair dye. So if you live in Cache Valley and want to do my hair for cheap you should let me know.

So last Saturday Zoram started his puppy training classes, which he embarrassed us in. But we got some pointers on leash walking, which previously Zoram would have nothing to do with. This week he picked it up quickly. Honestly, Sunday Chris was dragging Zoram around on the leash and today:

He's a little professional. We spent our lunch break walking him around the block. It's a short walk, but he's doing fantastic and he loves it.

Thursday February 25th:

Work is hard. Being an adult is hard. And when you're tired, nauseous, and have a headache, there's no better day to wear your hair in pigtails and pretend you have a weird mustache.

 

Friday February 26th:

Today I built a metal shelf thing I bought at K-Mart's closing sale that goes above the toilet. But it's slightly lopsided and I couldn't get one of the shelves to fit. I'm upset.

Then I went into Chris's work with Zoram and let him wander the aisles. Whenever Zoram saw his reflection in a refrigerator or oven he would freak out and it was pretty funny. I'm pretty sure he technically shouldn't be wandering Sears, but I'm grateful that Chris's boss hasn't said anything about it.

When we got back home I was making Chris watch My Fair Lady with me, but he fell asleep before "The Rain in Spain" which is lame. I stopped it at intermission anyways because it was already midnight. I grew up with musicals, I love musicals, and I love introducing them to Chris even though he's never a big fan. Except with Phantom of the Opera, because let's be honest that movie was incredible and the music is just so dang good!! Anyways, here's a Spotify playlist of my favorite musicals, it's fun to put on shuffle and great to sing along to.

Saturday February 27th:

Today I woke up at like 11, because Saturdays are my sleep in days, then immediately took Zoram on a long walk, then spent forever getting ready while watching 13 Going on 30, then took Zoram on another walk to PetSmart for his class. Zoram was great in his class today because it was on loose leash walking... which we walked to the class so he didn't need too much extra help. I don't think he is going to have his bad reputation in class anymore! Yay!

Notable tweets of the week:

8 years ago I decided not to commit suicide. While I still have daily trials, I am so grateful for that decision. #SuicideAwareness

— Kaylee ♡ (@cowgirl_kaylee) February 23, 2016

I just wish I had a work best friend like @JoslynDavis and @lily_marston. My grown up job is too lame. #friendshipgoals

— Kaylee ♡ (@cowgirl_kaylee) February 25, 2016

It takes all my will power not to freak out when #zoramgerrard is licking my hand. My fear of dogs is better, but not fully gone. #puppy

— Kaylee ♡ (@cowgirl_kaylee) February 25, 2016

It's funny how I used to hate the love songs in musicals and thought they were boring. #musicals #love

— Kaylee ♡ (@cowgirl_kaylee) February 27, 2016

#zoramgerrard's second puppy class went better. He still has a lot of work though. #puppy #puppytraining #petsmart pic.twitter.com/PYWqNMzTBY

— Kaylee ♡ (@cowgirl_kaylee) February 27, 2016

Two Minutes of Cowgirl Kaylee

Happy Tuesday - 2/23/16

Kisses

Oso (The giant teddy bear I got for Valentine's Day)

Puppy classes, and the hope Zoram will learn to behave

Music, always music

Deadpool

Popcorn and cookies

Sales

Shopping (I will probably doing a haul video soon)

Getting a new wallet (finally)

Multiple good hair days in a row

My Chris... but he's too perfect sometimes... it's intimidating... but better than any alternative

Becoming A Warrior

Friends, I'm sure you're all aware that this is a difficult time in my life. There's so much craziness going on that I wish I could just go hide somewhere and get decent amounts of sleep for a week. But life doesn't allow that. Life moves on. Life beats us. Life fights us. And sometimes we have to fight back.

It was eight years ago during this month that I was making suicide attempts. There are times when I'm reminded of everything that I was feeling at that time and I'm amazed that I survived. And there isn't a day that I don't thank God that I did survive it all. I have been so truly blessed in my life and I will always be grateful that I was strong enough not to end it early.

I know how awful life can be. I know what it's like to stare death in the face and want to give in. I know what it's like to give up and feel as if you can't go on any longer.

But I'm here to tell you that you can survive anything this life throws at you.

Because you are a warrior.

Warriors lose battles sometimes. Warriors still get bruised, beaten, and scarred. Warriors struggle some days and thrive other days.Warriors don't always fight alone. Warriors ask for help when they need it. But the most important thing about warriors... WARRIORS NEVER GIVE UP.

Over the past year whenever my depression is getting my down I write the word "Warrior" on my wrist with a heart. Having that word easily seen on my body reminds me that I am strong, that I have already survived so much, and that I can survive anything.

Friends, never give up on life, no matter how badly it's beating you down. You are a warrior. Together we are an army. And we are unstoppable.

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To Write Love On Her Arms [February 2016 COTM]

Hello friends! This month's Charity of the Month is incredibly important to me. This past month I've been very open about my mental health. I have depression and social anxiety and I'm doing a lot recently to cope with it, as my recent miscarriage brought a new wave of difficulties with it.

But something from my past that I am always timid to share, but if you read my blog carefully you already know, in high school I attempted suicide. I cut myself. I was, and sometimes still can be, an emotional wreck.

But I believe that I am a warrior, that I've overcome my issues and can face all my new issues without being defeated ever again. And I believe that my past has made me stronger. But most importantly, I believe that there are many others who are like me who don't know how to become warriors, who don't know how to help themselves, and have the potential to lose the battle.

Those are the people I blog for, the people I strive to help. But I can't do it alone, and I'm so grateful for the many organizations that help these people as well.

One particular organization is To Write Love On Her Arms.

Quick disclaimer, I did not learn about this organization until I was already on the healing end, so I didn't not use TWLOHA as a resource to help with my depression. However, I truly wish I had known and had looked over their website to help me.

TWLOHA's mission statement is as follows:

 "To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury, and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery."

 By making a donation to TWLOHA this month you are helping people like me with depression and other mental health disorders to find the assistance they need. TWLOHA helps people to find the treatment that they need in order to become warriors and fight through. You would also be helping to break stereotypes and educate the world about mental heath disorders. 

More so than the other charities I promote and support, TWLOHA is incredibly personal and important to me. I truly hope you all take the time to look over their website and learn more about what they do, then make a donation to assist them in their efforts. 

If you yourself are struggling with depression, addiction, self-harm, or suicidal thoughts, please CLICK HERE to be taken to TWLOHA website to find resources and help in your area. You are also always welcome to email me and talk with me. I've been through it too. You aren't alone, and you don't ever have to feel that way.

I was not paid to promote or endorse To Write Love On Her Arms. These are strictly my views.