I Am Going to be a Writer

You may or may not have noticed a new tab under my blog header called "Writing". It will hold all my future blog posts about my writing process as I work to attain a nearly life-long goal of writing a book. I won't get into details now, just click on the tab and learn all about it. 

I am faced with a million challenges as I am trying to write a book. Lack of time, lack of energy, writer's block, "that story has already been told", criticism, feeling too much pressure (mainly from myself), but mostly feeling like I'm not good enough to do it.

While writing a book has been a goal for the majority of my life, I have never finished one, and this discourages me. It scares me. But remember that quote:

For too long I have let my discouragement and my fear hold me back. I have put off writing long enough and I'm making a change. I am going to be a writer. Whether successful or not is for the future to hold, but I will publish a book, multiple books! I will write out all the stories that have been collecting in my head for years. It's my time to work, to make this dream a reality. I'm going to fight for it, no matter how long it takes.

I am going to be a writer. Just you wait and see. 

More Updates

-Maybe someday I'll give you a real blog post. We'll see.

-Yesterday we found an apartment!! Yay!!! Only problem is, we can't move in until September 7th. Boo!! We are so lucky that my aunt and uncle are so extremely kind and are letting us stay with them. Honestly they are the greatest and we are so insanely grateful!

-I'm looking for a full time job so that's exciting. I honestly love working and hope I can find something soon. I've applied to a couple places, still searching for more. Now I'm just waiting anxiously for phone calls about interviews!!

-There is a fly attacking me as I'm typing this.

-Today I realized my blog has gone over 100,000 page views. I'm so happy and I'm so grateful for my readers for always supporting me! It's not because of me that this accomplishment was met, it's all because of you, and I couldn't be happier! Love you all!!!

-I said I was going to purchase my domain name but I've hit a bit of a road block with that. So that will have to wait a while. I hope you can forgive me.

-My grandma is the greatest. She lives with my aunt and uncle and since I'm jobless I am spending my morning with her, and she's the greatest. I love her so much!

-We went out to dinner with some friends last night and while there I was trying to think of some good Texas stories for them, but I couldn't really think of any. While I am still planning on writing about our Texas adventure, keep in mind that I honestly don't have very many good stories. Sorry.

-We also visited Best Buy yesterday (and I found Ariana Grande's new album, which I need) and I think I figured out what laptop I'll be getting when I save up enough money for a new one. But honestly, I do need one because I just use Chris's and neither of us is very good at sharing when it comes to the laptop. We both want it. But my laptop broke in January so we've been surviving quite a while this way.

-My grandma puts too much mayonnaise in tuna... but I still love her.

-I've been very on-again-off-again when it comes to my Book Club, but I'm going to try and be more consistent. September is almost here, any votes for what we should read???

Homeless

So if you don't follow me on Twitter, which you should, then you may not be aware of our big move this weekend. We left Thursday night around 11:30 and drove about 20 hours straight to my parents house in Sandy. No more Texas living for us.

We will miss Texas. Chris misses the people and how people in Texas are better drivers. I'll miss the city and having a job, I hate job hunting. But I think most of all, we'll miss having a home. Because currently we are homeless.

I have an incredible aunt and uncle near Logan who are letting us stay with them for a few days until we find a new apartment. We started looking back in Texas but it's always hard to find an apartment if you aren't actually in the city. We had a couple leads and we drove to Logan early today to meet with people, but those fell through.

So we're homeless. Living out of suitcases. All our possessions piled into our car. What a life.

So... Random update time! Chris and I listened to The Giver on Audible. I had read it before in elementary school and when I first saw the movie trailer I thought to myself, "I don't any of this happening in the book." And so I wanted to read it again before seeing the movie and so during our drive we listened to it on Audible. Then watched the trailer again and I still feel like that movie is nothing like the book. PS, in the book the main character is 12, that's problem number one on a list of many. I will be seeing the movie though, and I'll post an official review on my blog soon.

Related to that last comment, I'm going to be doing a lot more book reviews on my blog because I love books! So pretty much any book I read, I will write about on this blog. That includes the few books I read this summer, I'm planning on adding posts for those soon.

Chris is sick. Staying up driving and eating junk food wasn't good for either of us. Chris woke up this morning with a fever. He's been doing pretty well the rest of the day but it's just sad.

On our drive in New Mexico it was raining and our broken windshield wiper kept getting caught on the end of the windshield so Chris had to drive with the window partly down and would have to push it back into place. Well after like ten minutes of this the wiper blade just snapped off and we were left with only one wiper. Driving in rain with one wiper blade is not the best. We had to lean across the middle to see out of the clear part. At least we didn't have to drive with the window down anymore.

Chris is reading Insurgent, because I'm making him, and every five seconds he turns to me and tells me how stupid he thinks it is. It's fine though, I still am obsessed with Divergent. I've watched the movie multiple times and even bought and read Four in one day. I just want him to read it and he's a good husband so he is.

We're staying in my cousin's bedroom. She's on an LDS mission in England. He bedroom has a whole wall of pictures of her and he friends and it's really cute. Also there's two Tangled posters and a picture of Zac Efron. It's a good room to be staying in.

I will be writing about our Texas adventure as a whole sometime next week. It was a good experience for us and we really did love San Antonio. But I don't think I can live away from mountains again. Honestly, when I was driving and I started seeing mountains again I kept smiling and almost cried of happiness. Mountains are amazing and I missed them.

I gained weight in Texas which means I will be working hard to lose weight and sharing my weight loss journey on my blog!! Because hopefully if I get my readers involved and rooting for me I won't give up so easily.

I've been wanting to add YouTube videos to my blog for a long time. You may have noticed the link to my YouTube page now at the top of my blog. However, there's nothing there because I don't have a camera or laptop with the abilities to make the videos I want. But it will be coming and it will be exciting. Honestly, I'm so excited to start making YouTube videos.

My husband is adorable. He's peeking over at me as I'm typing this and kissing my arm to distract me. I think it's partly because he has a fever and is on drugs and delusional. But I still love him more than anything. Actually, our trip to Texas really strengthened our marriage. Not that our marriage was bad before, but being on our own and living away from our families really helped us grow together more and  learn to be more dependent. We're better at acting like adults now, but we will never fully be adults, because it's too much fun to act like a kid all the time.

Well this post is a lot longer than I expected. Honestly I was just writing to let you know we're homeless, because that's a pretty good piece of information you might care about. Wish us luck in apartment and job hunting!!

Two Weeks // Blogiversary // Goals

Well, we've come to the end. Only two more weeks until Chris and I move back to Utah. While I expected this summer to really help my blog grow by giving me more time to write, the exact opposite happened, I didn't write at all. Apparently when I'm in school and should be doing homework I blog more than when I'm more free to write. That's probably not how it should work.

At this point I'll admit part of the reason my blogging was so scarce was because once I realized I wasn't writing about our Texas adventure I was embarrassed to suddenly start writing about it at the very end. In my mind since I didn't document the beginning of the summer, why should I start documenting the end?

I also was very disappointed in myself for not sharing any fashion posts this summer. That was probably the biggest new goal for my blog and I've been majorly failing at that. But I'll be honest with you, I've worn most the same things all summer and haven't bought anything new. Also, I know I'm just making up excuses for myself, but with Chris working all the time I haven't had anyone to take my pictures for me.

Oh, so this month marks my two year blogiversary!! Yay! I've been doing this blog for two years which is a pretty cool accomplishment. The only problem is that I thought by two years it would have grown much more. But I'm realizing now that I still have a lot of work to do to make this blog as successful as I want it to be. I'm trying not to compare my success to others (even though it's difficult) and just figuring out what I have to do or continue to do to make this blog successful for me. (Although suggestions are always appreciated. Wink wink.)

I do not have any sort of celebration for my "blogiversary" except maybe the name change. That's pretty cool in my opinion. And I'm purchasing the domain which will make things lots of fun. I think that will change the "success" for my blog and help me to help it grow. I will always want it to keep growing.

My current goals for this blog are as follows:

• Purchase the domain name
• Start posting regularly again
• Start making YouTube videos to go along with my blog posts
• Gain a larger following on social media
• Advertise my blogging friends
• And keep writing the things that make me happy

Again, I apologize for this summer. It was not a good summer for this blog. For me, yeah, I had fun, but for this blog it was kind of a total failure. But that's fine. Everyone and everything has their ups and downs and I still feel this blog is at the beginning of its race, I haven't given up on it yet. 

Thank you to all my readers/friends. I love you all so much for all the support you give me all the time. Thank you for believing in me and returning back to my blog again and again even when I have nothing of importance to say. I truly appreciate all you do for me. You make me happy and I consider you all some of my greatest friends. 

As I said in the beginning, in two weeks I'm moving back to Utah and maybe then I'll be able to refocus myself to work harder on this blog. I've gotten a new planner, I'll be buying myself a new laptop, and I'll be setting goals and deadlines to get the things done on this blog that I want. I'm so excited for what's to come and I hope you are too. 

UNDER (RE)CONSTRUCTION!!!

Hello good friends! As you may be seeing, this blog is under some construction. I'm changing things up a bit, including the name, I'm going to be purchasing the URL as well so that'll be interesting and fun, but it may take me a while to get it all done.

So anyways, there will be a lot of changes, I'll be blogging regularly again (hopefully) soon and I'm so excited for all the new things to come! Get ready!!

Cows Vs Remote Control Car

So I know I've been the worst blogger this summer and I'm sorry. I really am. Even more sorry because this isn't even a real blog post. But please enjoy this awesome video of cows chasing a car.